Status Sunday

Now I am in my floor's kitchen cooking lasagna, fried chicken, and peas for some people [guys] we been playing cards with. While they watch a fucking movie. I don't care tho cause I'm hungry and I kinda am VERY attracted to one of the guys, and so is the girl I am cooking the food with.

The one I am kinda VERY attracted to. . . how do I say this. . . umm he is very well to hang with. I hope you can catch my drift. lol. It's OK for you to laugh at me for 5 seconds.

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OK no more laughing. I was going to party today, but the guy who was supposed to take me bailed. >:(

[3 hours later]

I'm kinda pissed, cuz someone on the 6th floor who is kinda cute just told me that he came back from a party and was still wired and wanted to do something. DAMMIT. I'm going to a fucking party tomorrow. Yes, on the day of the Lord for you Christians out there. I've just been so damn bored.

Yesterday, though, I did kiss a cute boy, but it was only a dare. Turns out we have alot in common, and he is nice to talk to. Skip like 1000 steps and I met his parents and siblings today. Talk about AWKWARD. We [me, him, and 2 other ppl] were eating pizza on campus, and he said that his family had come to visit and brought him stuff he needed. He was going to branch off and chill with them while us other 3 went back to the dorm. But in the process of giving him my number so that he could hit us up when his family left, guess who walks up.

You guessed it. His family. I had his phone and talk about AWKWARD. He was so embarrassed he didn't even introduce anyone to anyone. I was so embarrassed that when I was done putting my number in I was like "RUN!!!" [not literally, but that's what my mind was screaming].

So just recently I finished watching TV/Movies with 2 sexy guys 3 floors up. It's 2:30AM and I'm tired, but happy cuz I really need a booty call soon. lol.

Not Even!!

Peace

P.S. But possibly :D

Freaky Friday

So I have not been able to find any parties today [it's labor day weekend so everyone went home]. I'm so fucking pissed about that!!! I want to dance on some sexy dudes. OR make out with some hot frat boys. I haven't been to any frat parties, but I will soon

I started this on Friday, so . . . wow

Peace

Thoughts for Thursday

I feel better today. I think it was my period fucking me up. I have a paper to write by tomorrow so . . . Until next time. . .

Peace

WTF Wednesday

Is it bad to be all 'not care-ee, I wanna be alone' already? I mean I know myself pretty dam well and I don't get like that unless some shit is making me like that. I'm just really sick of most of the people I'm around. It may just be my bleeding-ness [PD], but I really think that it's just the whole situation I'm in. I gotta stop. But stop what? I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm just being me. And I'm so dam sick of the judgmental holier than thou people I am around now. JIGGAS PLAY TOO MUCH!! I need to branch. But branch where? Maybe I'm just a bit bipolar as it seems now. I must find some outlet. Someone I can trust. And for once I don't think that person is going to come in the form of a female. I am so used to confiding my deepest emotions to a chick from round the block that I've known and been through enough with to trust and feel completely comfortable around. But there is no such thing so far. I must do something to change that.

And I wonder as well why people look at me a certain way. Like as if a am a leper or something until they get to know me. I notice that, but maybe that is me being too observational. Too analytical. Who knows. I Wish I did. But I think way too much and I haven't found my niche or my outlet to let all that go. I love to sing, but all that does for me is make me happy, not release all the tension from within me. Maybe being sick , and not having a voice is doing this to me. I never realized how much I loved to talk and sing until it was taken away. It will be given back really soon hopefully, but I want it back SOOO badly. Not just my voice that makes me heard. But my internal voice that keeps me going, and makes me forget the bad and overlook the worse.

I really wish I could overlook the worst now. I am fine and content. But who desires to live with naught but contentment? I want to live with happiness. Self-love, and Self-acceptance. But when and how will that come? I need someone to show me that but who? I have a couple ideas, but they have been dreamed up and not realized. And the dreams that they are conjured in keep me stoic and the subject the proactive one. When will I just suck it up and become proactive?

WHEN?!?!?!? DAMMIT!!!!

Peace

P.S. for now

Tunes for Tuesday

Wow. I almost smoked hookah today. It was very interesting. Anyways. . .

My Tunes for Tuesday are:

1. Gotta Go by Trey Songz
2. Circus by Kelis
3. Mystified by Rocco DeLuca and the Burden [weird video, but it's not the band's]
4. When Did Your Heart Go Missing? by Rooney [absolute love ♥ the song was made beautifully]
5. Dani California by The Red Hot Chili Peppers
6. Just a Moment by Nas
7. I Hate Everything About You by Three Days Grace
8. Driving Away by Holiday Parade [saw them in concert with FAMILY FORCE 5, All Time Low, and The Dangerous Summer]
9. Caring is Creepy by The Shins
[OMG LOVE THIS SONG!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥]
10. Bees!!! by Snake Handshakes [The first 7 seconds sends shivers down my spine. AMAZING Drummer. I can't find it in any video so you'll have to find it on facebook or l!m3w!r3]

My top 3 album covers are:

1. Chutes Too Narrow by The Shins












2. Popularity by Jonezetta












3. Food & Liquor by Lupe Fiasco ♥

Mainstream Monday

I gotta buckle down and do work son. That's all. Pretty mainstream huh?

Peace

P.S. I'm sick DAMMIT!!!! in the summer AND in the first week of school. My friend got me sick so I'm so pissed.

P.S.S. I got 2 crushes now.

P.S.S.S. Sike.

P.S.S.S.S. I'm so serious.

P.S.S.S.S.S. Actually 3.

Saintly Sunday

I didn't go to church today. I feel bad. But I went to sleep at 5AM and woke up at 2PM so. . . I went to the library at 8PM and was done at 10PM but didn't get back to my dorm until now. which is bullshit because I called the escort service at 10PM and it took 2hours to get picked up. AND it wasn't even on mine and the 3 girls I was with's behalf. It took a cop calling in a telling them to get their bitch asses there. He said "they'll be there in 5 minutes" but they showed up 90 seconds after he called. I'm so sick of that shit. It's the third time in a row it's happened. I'm pissed so I'm gonna go eat my Thai noodles.

P.S. I found a guy I got a crush on. . . LMAO yea right.

P.S.S. I'm so serious right now.

Peace

Status Saturday

Today I went the library and it was really productive. I went to a college night party. It was not as fun as I'd liked it to be, but maybe that was because the people I was with were self conscious and boring at times. whatever. It's 5AM and I just got back from playing pool and watching the USA BEAT spain in the olympics with some people. I wanna sleep.

Peace

Flippin Friday

So all this drama and bullshit with my classes is worked out. I started to read Leo Africanus by Maalouf and I reallly like it.

So yesterday there was a huge amount of drama with getting back to my dorm. So I'll start from the beginning. . .
So me and some friends were going to go eat at a steakhouse [which by the way had amazing food] but we had to walk there. So we first walked like 5 blocks the wrong way, so we ended up having to walk 15 blocks the other way to get there. Needless to say we were hungry tired and pissed. So when we get there it's not like the steakhouse we imagined. It was a fucking bar with smoke EVERYWHERE and people who looked like they lived on the street corner. So we got our food, and let me say the waitress looked like a hooker and gave horrible service; like we had to call her over anytime we needed something which shouldn't happen, and finished eating. By then it was dark outside, and about 10:00. We aren't around any bus stops, so we call the security escort service which is supposed to run from 5PM to 7AM. The first time we call the service the operator first asks for the address of where we are, but then proceeds to tell us the service doesn't run until 2AM. So we ask "what are we supposed to do? wait here until 2AM?" and the operator says "I guess so." So then another person calls back and asks the same and the same response is given. So when I call I ask what we are supposed to do. By then we had begun to walk towards the campus. While walking back to the campus I was basically arguing with another operator about how we all were supposed to get home. Another girl who was alone asked if she could walk with our group just to be safe and we said it was fine if she wanted to. We then told her about what had been happening and she called the service and they told her that they were running. Another girl in the group's mom called as well and the same operator I had talked to told her that if we had said that we wanted to get picked up and taken to a bus station that would have been alright, but yet when I talked to her and asked her that she said the service didn't run until 2AM. So there we were walking in the at 10+ at night in a city that is not particularly safe. When we did get to a campus connector bus stop we waited 15 minutes for the bus that was supposed to run every 10 minutes and when the first bus got there the driver said that she wasn't going back to the part of the campus we live on and promptly changed her route as she pulled away from the stop. The next bus came 15 minutes later and instead of going straight back to the other campus, stopped in front of the student commons and stayed there for about 10 minutes and picked up 10 more people before leaving. By the time we got back to the campus it had been over an hour more than what it should have taken us.

Story over.
Enough ranting.

Peace

Thoughts for Thursday

CLASSES STARTED TODAY AND IT WAS THE GREATEST THING ALMOST EVER!!!! Ok I will admit that I went overload on the caps lock but still. I've been waiting so long for this I will NOT mess it up. I a am GONNA get straight A's. No excuses.

So. . . Awkward.

I had Child Psych today, and I am about to go to Italian 102, and then World Texts. Italian I think will be fun, but World texts I dunno. It's for 2 hours and 40 minutes. Italian is 50 minutes, and Psych is an hour and 15 minutes. I think I'll be good for this semester because I like all of my classes and I'm very motivated.

Short. I know. Oh well.

Peace

Wild Wednesday

Wednesday wasn't really wild. well at like 2AM it was . . . :) but I feel kinda bad because maybe it's PMS or whatever but I'm just annoyed with EVERYONE today.

Yea. I think it's PMS. Nevermind. But my classes start tomorrow at 9:30AM. . . YAY!! I can't wait. seriously though. I need some distraction and I need to learn something constructive AND SOON!!. Mes God, ah te proin pazoz!!! Yesterday we had a trip to Target so I bought almost all the food stuffs I needed to live sanely. Today I went to the book store and got 9 of the 15 books I need for school. But I don't have any of the books I need for Cultural Texts of the Mediterranean. I found them all on Amazon.com cheaper though.

I gotta wash my hair soon. . . OK enough bullshit.

Peace

Tunes for Tuesday

No rant. it's 4:30AM where I am and got back from a party a little while ago so I'm tired.

My Tunes For Tuesday are:

1. The Frog Prince by Keane [♥]
2. At Your Best by Aaliyah Version 1/ Version 2
3. Make Up Smeared Eyes by Automatic Loveletter
4. The Permanent Rain by The Dangerous Summer
5. I Don't Wanna Know by New Found Glory
6. Australia by The Shins
7. Imagination by Jonezetta [absolute love] {sorry I couldn't find the album version of the song on YouTube, so you'll just have to deal with this live acoustic, note they aren't very good live. I saw them late last year :( }
8. The Way She Feels by Between the Trees
9. You're Not Alone By Saosin [kinda creepy but i still love them]
10. Songs Sound Much Sadder by Norma Jean [GREAT band live]

And my top 3 album covers are:


1. If You Could Only Keep Me Alive by The Dangerous Summer











2. On Letting Go by Circa Survive











3. I Care 4 U by Aaliyah [R.I.P]

Status Sunday

Still no roommate and I am glad, actually. I have a very strong feeling that she isn't coming. But that's just my instinct not fact. I think I truly lucked out though. I took the bus today a couple time and met 2 people that are cool to chill with. I love it here. I'm eating a cazone now and I feel like a freshman fattie already. I have not much else to do, but it is only 7PM [I'm not supposed to go around alone at night and I would have to agree] so I'm just gonna watch Beauty and the Beast, Big Brother [online since I don't have a TV yet] and read. I want a soda SOO badly I may try and find a corner store soon. Dunno

Peace

Status Saturday

I'm finally at college!! I'm glad to get away from all the chaos that ensued earlier with putting my shit away. I almost had a nervous breakdown because too many people were talking at the same time. All 4 of my grandparents, both my parents, and my 4 siblings were there, we drove 3 separate cars, and my stuff filled 2 of the cars.

My roommate was supposed to have moved in from 9AM to 2PM but she's still not here, nor have I gotten any message back from her on the website with the school email. No other information is provided about her; no phone number, address, alternate email, etc. She doesn't have a Facebook or a Myspace page either so. . . I hope I don't wake up at like 3AM to her moving her stuff in because that would suck to have to stay up through that. I also hope she's nice, not a thief, and a potential friend. All in due time I guess.

So for now when I was riding around with my family after eating at a nearby family member's house I saw all these people [not all freshman, but a large majority] walking around in groups of obviously awkward new acquaintances and I was all "alone" in stuffed in a car with my large amounts of family. I said goodbye to my mom a few minute ago and there's an eerie silence [seeing as how it's 12AM and we all have a busy day tomorrow]. I really do hope my roomie shows up so I can have someone to roll with for at least the time being. But I at least know some places to eat so I can suffice.

Finally being away is the strangest feeling, especially after looking back at pictures from my childhood and when I was a baby. I distinctly remember back then seeing college people and thinking that I would never get there, being so young. Now I'm one of those people.

Totally Weird.

Peace

Freaky Friday [with extra baggage]

This Friday is actually freaky. I'm having major stressful mood swings because I move out tomorrow. I'll be happy and cheerful about it one moment, and then the next I'll be sad and scared. I mean what if no one likes me? what if I don't make any friends and end up eating alone? what if I hate my roommate? what if I don't like my classes or my major? what if I get mugged? that list goes on. I think I'll be fine.


All my stuff is packed and in the middle of the house and now I'm just getting the last things that I want to take with me together and putting my stuff I'm leaving home in boxes. It's the weirdest feeling because I never thought this day would come. You see I HATED middle and high school, so when people would say "high school will go by so fast then you'll be in college, and then you'll be in the real world wishing you were back in high school" I would say "not a chance in heaven and hell! I hated high school it was four years and felt like five and there is a very small margin of cash you could pay me to go back." so I really hope that I love college.


I got a new phone today. It's a Glyde and I really like it.

Yesterday night at dinner for one of my friend's birthday we played laser tag with some other competitive black people [my team lost by like 2000 pts] we went to my house to have what my mom called 'a Michael Phelps party'. Anyways at dinner our waiter was kinda cute in a nerdy way, so one of my friends left her number but no name so what me and another person did was wrote her name on the paper and that he better call her or else. He didn't call her but he texted her some nice things that did not coincide well with the fact that he also informed her [us] that he has a girlfriend. I just thought that was funny.

OK enough of my ramblings
Stop reading this and go watch the Olympics [AKA track 4 now!!!]

Peace

Tearful Thursday

Today was the birthday celebration for a friend of mine. She turns 17 on Saturday. And this marks basically the last time I 'll see my friends for like 5 months. I'm sad I guess but I do really want to meet new people and get away from home. I don't think I'll get homesick. I never have so it's not very likely. We went to eat, played laser tag, and then went to my house to watch Michael Phelps swim because he represents for the B-more/ DC, MD area. I still can't wait until track starts. And those bastards better show the whole damn thing!!! [I'm a track star, point getting medal winning, athlete jussoyukno].

I didn't cry when I said goodbye a couple hours ago tho. I can proudly say that. But I really will miss being around them. They make me laugh a lot. OK enough of my whinging.

Peace!!

W w w Wednesday

Every day of the week I keep thinking that when that day of the week comes again I will be at college!!! It seems so much more real now. Since I am leaving in 2 days. I just ordered my phone and it will be a Glyde! I just recently found out that I can go on the internet for free on the weekends. I'm SOO pissed I didn't know this earlier or I would be blowing up the internet on a daily basis. . . I also got more money and I bank account; so I have to start buying books now/soon. I think I'm gonna do well at college.

I really hope and pray that I will like my roommate though, because I still haven't talked to her. In case you haven't read I've gone through 2 roommate already. But it's not like I had anything to do with their decisions.

I saw Tropic Thunder today and I have to say that it was VERY funny. Though it did have a lot of parts that were unnecessarily gross, and it had WAY too much cursing for my liking. They threw around curse words to the point when you think "is it really necessary to at a 'fuck or shit' between every word you say?"

I found a website to buy books cheaper called 'half.com' and the website is run with Ebay where you can sell and buy textbooks, usually for school, cheaply.

Not much more to say

Peace

P.S. WATCH THE OLYMPICS! They're pretty awesome.

Tunes for Tuesday

OK so I've been obsessed lately with watching the Olympics [specifically men's swimming... yum]. It's so strange this year. I don't know why. Anyways. . . TUNES FOR TUESDAY has finally come back around. I'm glad. Tunes for Tuesday is my favorite day of the week besides Friday. And the next time Tuesday comes around I'll be at COLLEGE!!!!! I limit myself to 5 exclamation points. So as not to get too excited this early.

My Tunes for Tuesday are:

1. Somewhere Only We Know by Keane UK and US [classic amazingness ♥]
2. Rock the Boat by Aaliyah
3. Just For Now by Imogen Heap
4. Kick, Push by Lupe Fiasco
5. Keep the Car Running by Arcade Fire
6. A Letter to Elise by The Cure
7. Graduate by Third Eye Blind
8. Over My Head by Fleetwood Mac
9. Plays Pretty for Baby by Saosin
10. Seconds of Pleasure by Van Hunt [From the movie "Something New"]

And my top 3 album covers are:

1. Come Close by Saosin












2. Esperanza Spalding by Esperanza Spalding












3. WAO!! by Oreskaband

Miseducated Monday

I know 'miseducated' isn't a word but I don't care it fits. So I watched the documentary "Jesus Camp" today on You Tube and let me just say it was so messed up it's not even funny. So I'm going to go through each part and add my commentary. I advise everyone reading to watch it for yourself because it is VERY eye opening. I know I'm a bit late with this one but it's whatever.

Jesus Camp

Part 1

The man speaking on the radio is an amazing voice of reason in my eyes. I think it may be in part the fact that I am EXTREMELY liberal. His views on Christianity is in many respects level with mine. I do believe it is insane to say a man who starts and continues to unjustly support a WAR is anointed. People throw the word 'anointed' around way too freely. The 'pastor' woman Becky Fischer is truly trying to brainwashing the children. I think these people are phony Christians, and the 'leaders' of this movement are projecting their own opinions on wat they teach. The clearly overweight again I say 'pastor' has the nerve to call OTHER Christians "fat and lazy". I do agree with her message that children have to change the world, but not at all in her sense of waging war on those that oppose her. She is teaching the children to be judgmental towards people who are different and teaching them to not have their own opinion on anything. As a baptist, speaking in tongues comes when you have been through the trials and tribulations that God puts in your way in order to show you that he exists, and it comes after you have been baptized and understand more about being a Christian. I don't believe you can be told to speak in tongues, as those children were. It should just come when the Holy Spirit presents itself. That 'pastor' woman is sick.

Part 2

Children are "usable in Christianity"? That statement makes her seem to me like a predator. Her message to children is just as bad as those in where she speaks of where they are teaching their children how to fight, kill, and give their lives for the cause of Islam. I don't see the purpose of making children as radical as those in the Middle East and in Africa. As much as she is saying that what's going on in Palestine "will shake you to your foundation" it isn't much different than the young people who are from the USA who are yielding guns at young ages, going over to Iraq with the intent to kill, hating people because of their beliefs, and fearing or judging people because of how they look. And then she goes on to say that Mr. Bush [I don't feel comfortable calling that man my President, sorry] has brought credibility to Christians. What insanity. As this part continues Fischer talks to 2 boys and one says that at the age of 5 he was saved because he "wanted more of life". Now let's be realistic. At 5 what more can you get out of life than eating, sleeping, pooing, and playing? The same boy is being taught as well that, get this, GLOBAL WARMING IS NOT REAL!!!!!! And that a temperature rise of according to them "0.6 degrees" is not enough to affect anything. Yet our icecaps are melting, our weather is changing, and our animals are slowly dying out whether it be climate change causing chain reactions that diminish their numbers. Also the same boy is being taught that creationism instead of evolution should be taught and anywhere that evolution is taught is sketchy and should be avoided. Judgmental much? And if it couldn't get any worse [it does] they discourage science. [At this point I couldn't really take it anymore, but I had to finish watching the movie].

Part 3

I really don't like how forced these kids are to be Christians. Like one girl wants to grow up to be a nail technition. And the only reason she wants to do that is to be able to try to convert people to Evangelical Christianity in a calm environment. What kind of ambition is that? For those watching this part now, did I just see an Israeli flag? Sorry to go off subject, but the music played during the parts where they reveal background information is really relaxing, and I like it. Lmao. OK anyways. . .

Part 4

Her props are stuffed animals in teaching children about evil? Come on. My little brother has that lion stuffed animal. Does that make him evil? He's 9. Now on to that bitch insulting Harry Potter. Had Harry Potter actually been real, and alive today he would have put HER bitch ass to death. Sorry. But yo was getting TOO overboard with that mess. HP is a completely fictional character in a book and a movie. And he's not a damn warlock. He's a WIZARD duh. Trick has the nerve to talk about putting people to death around children. Oh hell no. See that kind of stuff gets me REALLY pissed because I 'm going to school to be a therapist for [I will choose either couples or children to adolescents] people with problems, and she is putting problems in these kids heads that I may end up being responsible to fix. So I am definitely not happy with that. So anyways . . . she wants so called 'fakers and phonies' to be washed with God's water of Nestle? Goodness gracious that bitch screaming oooooooooooooooo is fucking with my speakers. That Fischer woman is out of her mind. Presenting to CHILDREN that sin is death. It obviously isn't because I sin every day just like any living and breathing person on this earth, and yet I'm not dead yet. Anyways. . .

Part 5

I don't feel like talking about this anymore because it pisses me off, so I'm just going to post the link to the rest of these and call it a night. My last point is. . . PRO-CHOICE!!!!!!.
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8
Part 9

Status Saturday

Stone Soul Picnic was amazing, and I will definitely go again next year if I can. I was able to see Jazmine Sullivan, Solange Knowles, Jeff Majors, Marvin Sapp, James Fortune, East of the River Steel Band, and a little bit of Whodini. I had a alot of fun. The only 2 problems were food-wise I wasn't prepared to stay the day, and I didn't bring any chairs or blankets [I went with 2 other people]. I heard that Jennifer Hudson was going to be there, but we left too early to see her :(. I was devastated. I mean it's JHUD!!!

But it's whatever now. I have so many books that are on my list to read, but all I do is stay in the house/room and eff around on my computer. I gotta get out. . . I will soon enough. I leave in 6 days!!! " Oh how time flies" said by Groove Theory.

I can't stop listening to "In Love With Another Man" by Jazmine Sullivan. It's a bad addiction, but I love the pain and emotion she depicts with the song. Especially in the live taping of her singing it. I am thinking of writing a short story or play around the song. It wouldn't be that hard because I already have many ideas of how to lead into the song which I hope to have set in the middle as the climax, or at the end as the finale. I gotta think about it.

I have been recently re-watching the short-lived series called Firefly. The show is AMAZING, and I've been a fan ever since they released the film's "conclusion" as Serenity. I loved both except that both Shepard and Wash died. That was a serious problem. It's so cliche that someone dies in action movies like that. W/E. I wish they would reprise the series and continue from where the SERIES left off, not the movie. But the series was cancelled back in 2002 and the movie was released in 2005. That's a good little while ago.

Dammit. I'm a cult fan :D
Until next time
Peace.

Freakin Friday

I promised videos a little while ago. Sorry. It's not gonna happen for a little while. I got a lot on my plate with the whole packing thing. But anyways. . . It's FREAKIN Friday!! And guess what tomorrow is?!?!? STONE SOUL PICNIC!!!!! Here's a link to a sponsor hosting it with details. It is going to be another one of the best days of the summer. It starts at Noon and ends at 8pm. With a whole bunch of other fun stuff to do too!! And one of my newfound favorite singers EVER Jazmine Sullivan is going to be there!!! I can't put enough exclamation points in this blog. So I'll just say for those of you in the D.C., Maryland, Virginia area GOOO!!!!! And even if you aren't close by still go. Not much else to say, but I'll have word tomorrow after the event. I;m gonna be singing along like the whole time. Yet again, I can't wait.

Peace!

Thoughts for Thursday

So my thoughts for today are somewhat sad because I leave for school in 9 days!! I can't wait until then, but I am very nervous about being on my 'own'. Oh, well I'll get used to it. Yet again yesterday we had another jam session, but I was actually recorded singing a part of " A Day in Your Life" by Chrissette Michelle. I sang the part when she belts out really high and loud "Mama said touch the sky with your hands, and to fly on the wings of the Lord etc." I think I did OK but I gotta work on my voice more. I could be SO much better. I wrote the first half of a song with no name yet yesterday. I was just angry for some reason and I think it turned out really well. I have the piano chords for it so far, and the way it will be sung.

"The Song With No Name"

Remove yourself from this place
Spin the reflection you hold so dear
and erase the mirror
Keep your spirit at ease
and bear the hardships down

Just Keep
[Keep yourself happy]
Just Stay
[Just stay bright]

Now that you are gone
Things should be better
I can see you clearly
You are beautiful
and don't let anyone
tell you otherwise.

Just Keep
[Keep yourself happy]
Just Stay
[Just stay bright]

End

When I sing this I'm going to have to put a lot of riffs and vibrato in this to lengthen it, and also to add to the emotion exhumed through the words. So I got a lot of work to do in that respect.

Peace

Tunes for Tuesday

I did more singing today so I may have a video of that to put up in a minute. [Meaning sometime in the next week.] But I'm getting better by listening to Jazmine Sullivan, Ella Fitzgerald, Kim Burrell, Chrissette Michelle, and Lauryn Hill. I also watched The Wiz with Diana Ross, Michael Jackson [when he was still blackish], and Lena Horne, that helped too. So anyways my Tunes for Tuesday are as follows:

1. You've Made Us Conscious by The Audition
2. Stay by Small Sins
3. Best Of Me by Chrissette Michelle
4. A Day in Your Life by Chrissette Michelle [This isn't Chrissette, but she sound good as well.]
5. Need You Bad by Jazmine Sullivan
6. I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How To Dance by Black Kids
7. Chori Chori Hum Gori Se by Udit Narayan [I added humor yay]
8. Hounds of Love by Kate Bush
9. Hit the Heartbrakes by Black Kids
10. In Love With Another Man by Jazmine Sullivan

And my top 3 album covers are:


1.The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill by Lauryn Hill











2. Does It Offend You, Yeah? by Does It Offend You, Yeah?











3. Citrus by Asobi Seksu











Enjoy!

Musical Monday

We laid down some tracks... as in I sang 1 song and every1 else did like nothing. lol
but i may load the song i sang and put it up for Tunes for Tuesday. but this is some of the shenanigans that transpired today.
You should be able to see the mic in the back.
I didn't take this pic, but I like it anyways.

Super Sunday

Today I went to church like a non-heathen :). I was late, but I was still there.

Anyways, today I went to Harper's Ferry in West Virginia. I should post for Where? on Wednesday, but I probably wont have a chance to because I have to pack for school!! I leave in 13 days!!! I'm SOOO excited to leave home. I'm not the homesick type, so I might just leave and not come home until I graduate.

These are some pictures I took today: [The picture arrangement looks like shit so bear with me please]

Status Saturday

I just wrote a poem.

"The sun shines in clicks and bangs"

Mes soleil non piu lite.
My sun no longer shines.
Stacked pillows and blankets
cover my view of the outside
my view of the frozen.
As much as they lie to themselves
they are broken and no longer reflectable.
That is in the mirror of self righteousness.

Now you may ask
why suns don't shine anymore?

Because they aren't given the chance.
They have to fight to be bright.

Thoughts for Thursday

Today I wanted to talk about "radioactive" people. I coin the term "radioactive" as a nicer way to say someone is desperate. I figure that's a good analogy because being desperate radiates from you in your actions and speech. A friend of mine asked me if she seemed desperate, and in order to be a good friend I had to tell her nicely that she wasn't necessarily desperate, but more "radioactive".

When you are radioactive you ooze clingy and neediness. That's what makes you radioactive. In order to avoid being radioactive one has to:

1. Forget all ambitions of "I absolutely HAVE to find that perfect partner".
2.Any lists comprised complaining [no not listing COMPLAINING] of those perfect attributes one seeks in a partner need to be erased as well. Those lists force one to unconsciously be actively searching for the qualities on the "my perfect mate" list.
3.And finally, to avoid being radioactive BE YOURSELF. Because trust me. Somebody somewhere loves you, and if not, there's always someone who has the potential to. You just have to be open enough to accept them as they would accept you.


That's my word for the day I guess. DON'T BE RADIOACTIVE